merry christmas. this post will not be long. i just want to say that whatever you are struggling with, pray to God about it.

i have struggled with addictions throughout my childhood, when i finally came to God this year it was like the urge didn’t even exist. all my life i’ve accepted my addictions as normal because everyone was doing it but it is not normal to waste your life away.

i have been raised catholic but only this year have i begun to seek the Lord truly.

i just wanted this short testimony to be here before i begin this section of my blog about being the best version of yourself. always put God first in all that you do. yes we want to improve ourselves but we shouldn’t forget our creator!

the most beautiful part of us returns to Him when we die - which is our soul not our physical being

25/12/2024

no human is coming to save you. no human is coming to pick you up, tell you what to do and do it all for you. as much as people do care about you - they will not do the work for you.

you can complain about how much you want to change but nothing will change. scream into the void. cry it out. stare into the mirror. THEN get up and change.

do not excessively mourn a missed opportunity to the point that you become paralysed by it. if you do, you no longer see the prayers you are currently living in. there is nothing permanent in this life except death.

if God has blessed you with a new day, He is not done with you. God is saying your story is not over. your purpose has time to be fulfilled.

remember the parable of the talents (matthew 25:14-30). God has given you a talent. multiply it in His name.

do something with the talent so the Lord can be praised. become so great that it is obvious that your position is only through God’s power.

you do not need to fight yourself or hate yourself. pray to God, ask Him to show you mercy. ask Him for help. rely on God.

once you rely on God you will realise He has always been working behind the scenes. it is only through Him that you are here right now.

thank God for giving you another chance.

don’t compare your story to others. everyone else may be growing trees but God wants you to grow a forest.

that’s why your journey looks different compared to everyone else’s. that’s why you have a lot on your plate. sometimes it gets hard, it is okay to cry to God when you feel overwhelmed. stay close to God because

with Him you will grow a beautiful forest.

something that came from the heart. 4th feb 2025

enjoy the journey. my goal this week is to create a beauty binder. i want to create my own aesthetic using my inner child.

as a child i loved mermaids and fairies. my favourite barbie movies were charm school, a mermaid tail and fairy secret.

i wanted to be a mermaid desperately, i used to paste those copypasta in comment sections and at one point i even attempted a spell. funny i know…

i have always been a creative person, i made episode stories, wattpad stories. i had a roblox youtube channel where i loved to edit videos. i loved to draw, i had original characters. i am sad that i have forgotten the stories i made about them. side note - i want to get back into drawing, even know i have lost my knack for it i just want to draw.

i started watching anime at 9 years old, my first anime was mermaid melody (you see the pattern). i hold that anime close to my heart. i wanted to get into animation. i comfort my inner-child, i am sorry that her dream got crushed. honestly i can still make that dream a reality.

when i think back to the women that i looked up to - they were always elegant. women who didn’t let themselves go but they allowed themselves to age. i never want to be afraid to age. ageing is a gift from God. grey hairs, wrinkles, sagging i’ll embrace it.

i was really excited to grow up into a teenager, i think my next post will be about how i want to develop my personality. even though my teenage years have passed, i want to live for my younger self.

i no longer want to chase trends. what i determine as gorgeous is not the same as what the media portrays.

create your own sense of beauty. beauty binder post

i saw a tiktok that said you have to first make something exist before you can perfect it. just like with this website, i realised i had to create it before i could perfect the theme. even now the theme is not perfect but the website is functional - saekisfavourite exists.

the fun is in the creation not the validation

16 march 2025